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Sunday, 22 November 2009
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True Blue
By Madonna
Papa Don't Preach
see relatedWhat was the first social networking website you ever used?
The first socializing network site I ever used was Myspace. For a while, it was generally OK. But as time went on, I was persecuted and threatened by my old enemies from Chavez High School, who sent me threats and other obscene emails there. Eventually I grew tired of the endless persecution from my enemies and went to Facebook, but my enemies continued to persecute me there. Finally, I stumbled upon Xanga, and I have been here ever since. I recently quit Facebook and Myspace, and I continue to blog here on Xanga.
Why do I stay here? Because, in spite of some disagreements between myself and others, I find Xanga a welcome respite where I can speak my mind freely and openly without putting up with the persecution I endured on Myspace and Facebook. I also do not have to put up with the slimy bastards from Chavez High School sending me vulgar threats and obscene images.
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Aces and Kings: The Best of Go West
By Go West
Never Let Them See You Sweat
see relatedNo one truly understands me anymore, and it hurts
My enemies from high school, and indeed even college, have seen it fit to destroy my good name, to the very point of where no one wants to even try and understand me in the true sense anymore. Everyone sees me as a sick, bloated, hot-tempered jackass, not as a human being with rights and feelings, all because of the lying mouths of a bunch of cowardly punks I once knew when I was in Chavez High School who were always anxious to see me ruined.
I am not quite the idiot the rest of the world would like to project me as. OK, so I tend to speak my mind and not be hesitant about it, so I usually am strong and unleaded in my blogs, and so I support conservative causes. So what? Some of you here and indeed many others all so vehemently say that I am radical and outspoken. Well, I cannot change my nature. I am, simply put, myself and not anyone else.
I know I do not speak to any of my friends here on Xanga, and that I do indeed regret. I am simply not a people person--in other words, I do not socialize well. I have had that tendency almost all my life, since I was ten years old. In fact, the only person I socialize well with, and even then not always with ease, is my old, tired, aging mother.
People wish to treat me as an outcast, as a freak, and as a hopeless idiot, but what they do not realize is this--I lack the ability to socialize not because I want to, and certainly not because I am a sociopath (a staple of Chavez High School student propaganda). Rather, it is because no one wishes to truly understand me. They would almost all rather see me just like the asshole students of Chavez High School saw me--as a crazed, uncontrollable, hot-headed sociopath.
I am not a sociopath, people. I am just not a social person, and not by choice, but because I fear that if I became social, people would take advantage of me. They might even try to screw with my mind. So I figure the best way to go is alone. But that isn't how I want to end up. I want some woman to understand me, to understand I am not the enemy, and to understand I am not this crazed sociopath figure that others have painted me as being.
I hope this clears the air around my good name.
Wednesday, 18 November 2009
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Affection
By Lisa Stansfield
All Around The World
see relatedWhy Republicans are more than likely to win the upcoming elections of 2010 and 2012
The reasons why the Republicans are more than likely to win the upcoming elections of 2010 and 2012 are pretty simple. Whereas the Democrats have tried and failed to bring change to this nation, the Republicans are at least showing promise in their goal to successfully bring change to America. While the Democrats use propaganda, bribery, treachery, and force to achieve their goals and win support, the Republicans use simple, down-to-earth terms with people. While the Democrats are losing support in many states, Republicans are gaining support in many areas--in fact, 40% of the country calls itself conservative while only a distant 20% calls itself liberal.
Moreover, the Republicans are, at least for the time being, willing to listen to the will of the people and not to their own private desires. They promise an end to the growing tyranny that the Democrats have brought into our government and, best of all, wish to rebuild our world image and end our dependence on oil and other raw materials from other nations--in particular, the nations of the Middle East. Few people doubt that the future of America rests with the Republicans, not with the discredited Democrats.
Still, the Democrats are not willing to give up their losing fight to keep control over America. But the more the Democrats tighten their grip, friends, the more voters will slip through their fingers. They cannot now, after their tyrannical actions and even worse policies, expect the American public to follow them in their quest to make America a socialist welfare state.
Ultimately, the Democrats' failure to listen to the will of the people, as well as the failure of their foreign policies and domestic legislation, will inevitably lead to Republican ascendency in the upcoming elections of 2010 and 2012. And as the Democrats are discredited, defeated, and forced to relinquish their power to the Republicans, the liberals of this nation--as their benefactors--will suffer an immense loss of prestige.
Monday, 16 November 2009
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Jennifer Paige
By Jennifer Paige
Let It Rain
see relatedWhat was your most painful break-up?
The most painful break-up I ever had was when I lost contact with the dearest woman I ever had in my life--a sweet, middle-aged widow Minerva Gonzalez, who was like a second mother to me. Though she was thirty years my senior, we shared a very special relationship together--Minerva thought of me as a son, and I thought of her as a second mother.
Minerva had not had an easy life. She married an abusive, drug-using man when she was only 14 years old, and he used to treat her like trash and beat on her. He ended up dying of a drug overdose, leaving her a young widow with two young daughters. Her mother-in-law always blamed her for his death, and it affected her emotionally. She thus blamed herself for his death for years, so much that she ended up going into a nervous breakdown for a year. When she met me, she was already emotionally frail and prematurely aged, but I cared for her and defended her from those who mocked her behind her back, even from the insults of those who were once my friends but left me when I befriended Minerva, thinking that would cause me to abandon her. It did not have the effect that they planned.
Sadly, Minerva learned that she had a terminal illness--that is, HIV--and left Houston in the late summer of 2008, for she did not wish for me to see her die. I was heartbroken, but I knew that she had to do what she thought best. She cared enough for me to not let me see her die.
I still miss Minerva to this day, and I always remember her in my memory and my prayers.
Sunday, 15 November 2009
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Ghostbusters II (1989 Film)
Run D.M.C.--Ghostbusters II Theme
see relatedWhat's the compliment you get the most? What's the compliment you want to get more often?
What's the compliment I get the most? Well, that depends. Sometimes, it's "Sammie, you didn't do this right," or "Sammie, you're a jackass just as your father was before you," or other insults. The kind of compliment I look forward to getting, at least one day in the future, is from a girl saying, "Sammie, I love you."
But, so far, that does not seem to be in my deck of fortune-telling cards. Well, I guess I have enlightened you as to what kind of typical day I have. Funny, eh? Well, for me, it is not funny. It is degrading. Useless to tell you that, I suppose. Nothing can change my public image from being one of mockery and torture to that of a person with rights and privileges and a future to go with them.
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