Well, as if my life could not get any worse, now I have learned that the girl I have pined away for over four years' time--Maria Saracay--has betrayed me for some jackass man with the I.Q. of a cannoli. I saw them on the Metro bus today, acting like lovers in the sheets, as if to make me feel like less of a man. But I stayed remarkably cool and collected. I did not let my temper rule me, although I was indeed tempted to let it break loose.
Now the question becomes this--How many more betrayals must I go through with women before I finally call it quits or I finally find at least one woman who is not prone to betraying me for another man? That question remains a mysterious one. But it doesn't matter. I have been through so much hell with the females of Planet Earth that I no longer trust them anyway. They not only shit on me rather than even look at me, but they even expect me to take their shit and not do anything about it. Now you tell me who is being unfair and unjust--the women or me?
I am so damn tired of trying my best for women and getting little or no good results for it. I defended Maria, I loved Maria, and I treated her with more respect than almost all my other friends in high school. But the girl who I loved and cherished more than all the other women of Houston, the girl I waited for over four years, has now betrayed me for another, just like all the other women I have met in my life.
How long will this deceit and betrayal continue to rock my life? I do not know.
Comments (2)
i hear what you did for, felt for, and wanted WITH this girl but i didn't hear what she had offered to YOU. i also get played by girls too but that only means something was missing from the start. there are many more good girls than bad ones and really the bad ones are going to get hurt too by us guys who are sick of the game. karma? who knows. the fact is it sounds like maria didn't think the same as you. i would be mad too. ♦
Did you ever have an open conversation ad to where you both knew how each other felt?