One thing I always had hoped to be by the time I turned 23 years old was a married man. Well, here I am, seven days away from being 23 years old and still single, depressed, and lonely. I guess some dreams never come to pass.
My dad always told me since I turned eighteen to never get married, because of his misfortunes with women. He has been married six times, and all of his marriages have ended in divorce. He clearly fears I will have to suffer the same if I ever got married. I simply have not had much luck with women, and it is mostly my fault. I have a bad temper, I tend to be rather angry and full of hate and bitterness, and I never have it in me to tell a woman how much I appreciate her. Plus, I am overweight, and I am not physically attractive, which worsens my situation.
I don't know what to do to change my fortunes with women. All I know is, every good woman I have ever been with I have driven away with my bad temper and my physical unattractiveness. I'm beginning to feel that my dad was right about one thing--never get married, for it only brings misfortune to a man.
Yet, I do not wish to be a lone man for life. I always wanted a woman to love and cherish, and I always wanted a son to carry on my name. But it seems like that will never happen in my life. I simply know that no woman wants to be around a man that has such bad qualities as I do. Simply put, I do not know how I can change my ways.
Maybe you, my friends on Xanga, can help me. Any suggestions?
Comments (1)
If marriage is what you want, you can have it. Attractiveness really is in the eye of the beholder, and more importantly is personality and how much love you are willing to give. You mention you have a temper, and I think that is an obstacle that you can work on, whether it is through counselling or through your Church. I think you are capable of overcoming this challenge because you seem to want it bad enough and are aware of your shortcomings (nobody is perfect by the way). And you are a guy--I didn't get married until 28 and I'm female.